Another gray day...

On these days, I wonder if the sun still exists?
I haven't seen it for 3 days now, I hate those gray clouds...

Since I don't have to work, I sat around in the house the whole day. I watches Cyber Sunday. You can't watch Pay Per Views in my country. I download my wrestling. Wrestling plays a huge part in my life.

I was cheering for Taker...


I couldn't believe he lost.... :(

I had a ruff weekend.

First the wedding. Peppermint Patty gained weight since I haven't seen her. But she looked majestic as a bride. The wedding party took place in a small hotel outside the city. It was really cute, and looked like a winter holiday home together with a fireplace and everything. The food was delicious too. Me and my year mates from the U were the only company consisting of only young people. There were only around 70 people there. So everybody kinda counted on us to be the "show-stoppers"... I felt uncomfortable in the constant spotlight. I just can't have a good time if somebody orders me to do it. So I kinda sat around our table the whole night...

I have this friend from the university. Let's call her Marcie. She's always been like Marcie from Peanuts. Always studying, never partying, good notes, few friends... She's a really nice girl, and I like her very much... as a friend. I'm afraid she wants more. But she's too shy to tell me, and that's good. I kinda feel for her. But I can't imagine myself being in a relationship. I'm too self-centered to care about anybody else than me. I never had a longer relationship, and I think I never will.

So Marcie invited me to watch a musical this Sunday. She had 2 tickets for Mamma Mia. She bought the tickets for herself and for her sister, but her sister couldn't make it, and she said that she won't go and watch it alone. Now, those tickets were really expensive, they cost like 160 bucks.
I agreed to go , but inside I was dieing.... I didn't want to pay so much money for something I'm not even interested in. (Obviously, I didn't want her to pay for those tickets alone.) We shared the ticket price, because I said, that's the only way, I'll go with her.
And at the end it turned out, that I REALLY enjoyed the show! The whole thing was fantastic! I'm glad I watched it. Guess what, I'm listening to ABBA right now, as I type this ^_^'

I have the week off from work, and I'm home with my parents. I visited a doctor today with my knee. He gave me a shot in each of my knees. This was a private hospital, so I payed a lot of money, and he didn't even make an X-ray, let alone listening properly to my explanation about the problem. Oh, and the shots hurt like hell too.
I'm working in the field of medicine too, though I'm not a doctor. I never want to be like this doc. Never.
I hope my knees will get better.

Patty and Chuck

Took this one today on the road to the university. I musta looked like a total goof fumbling with my camera on the trolley. We were standing at a red light. I took this photo in the last second before the trolley started. I'm glad I did though... The two pigeons looked so cute there.

I kinda started to grow a beard. Dunno why. I forgot my electronic shaver in my flat when I went home for the holiday weekend, and it's painful to shave with a razor when it's longer. So I just avoided shaving until my bristles became a short beard by now... Maybe I'll keep it. It makes me look fierce. Just what I need for the weekend.


This weekend I'll have to be at the wedding of one of my friend's. She was in the same year as me in the university. She had a bit of a crush on me, but I didn't really like her. I mean she was okay, but she never was one of my fav peeps. I told her that several times too. We kinda had a Peppermint Patty - Charlie Brown relationship. Me being Chuck of course.
So I have to attend this wedding. I hate weddings generally, I hope I'll never have one of my own.
Funny, because I wanted to get married in the kindergarten with a girl named Eva. She lived and still lives in the neighbourhood. I guess my mom dind't really like her. We played a lot together both home and at the kindergarten.
Then I started school a year earlier than she did. I remember not wanting to go to school, because she wasn't coming. My mom was furious. Then she won me over by buying me a schoolbag with a turtle on it. I liked it so much, that I didn't want to waist it. So I went to school. And never talked to Eva again.
Talking to somebody a year below you was the worst thing you could do in elementary school. Well, it is if you cared about your coolness factor I mean...
Seriously, I don't know, why I didn't talk to Eva anymore. Why I didn't go over to her house to play anymore...
I met her some years ago on a train. She looked pretty. She was studying economics. I think she's an accountant at some agency now... I have her on my local myspace-like friend list. Maybe I should write to her?

Gray

You know the weather, when the sky is all gray, and it is slowly and quietly raining the whole day long?
Well I hate it.

One memory

I always loved watching the construction machines as a kid. Funny, I've never been a car-fan as a little kid, but I really liked watching excavators and grabs in work. My grandma lives in front of the railroad station, and we spent long hours watching the watching goods trains getting filled with stuff using a grab machine.
I remembered this sweet memory today on the way home. I took the train home, since we have holidays on Monday and Tuesday, so I went home to my parents from my flat. One station is under construction. I had plenty of time to take a photo.

I took it from the train. Somehow I felt that I could watch this machine work for hours...

My sister's boyfriend proposed to her. It scares the sh*t out of me. Not because I'm 3 years older than her, and I'm the one who should marry first. I know tings doesn't work that way...
It's because I'm loosing her. Nothing will be the same again. And I don't know how to deal with that... I'm not ready. My world is slowly falling apart around me.

Stardust

I really wanted to do something useful today, so I started with my Japan homework. I have to study, because I have this language proficiency test in Japan at december 2nd. I go for "yonkyuu" :D
So I was busy with my homework, when I got distracted by the fact, that the new episode of Naruto Shippuuden was up and available on the net. I downloaded it real quick, and watched it on my iAudio A2.

I just love my A2!

About Naruto? Gaara lives again, oh, and there's a new opening too. The animation is kinda in the same style as the last one. I don't really like the music.

I went to the mall tonight with my friend/flatmate, and his gf to watch Stardust. There was a Dance dance revolution contest going on. I -of course- enetered. And won a DVD. Well... every entry won a dvd, but that was sweet anyways... You could choose from different anime dvds. I chose Nausica and the valley of the wind. I like Myazaki. They didn't have Totoro (my fav), and all the other dvds were Inu Yasha. Inu Yasha is just too girlie for me...

Yes, the movie... I liked it. It was like listening your grandma telling you a Grimm fairy tale for the first time. Sweet and innocent, with a fairy tale happy ending.


Before the movie, after the DDR contest I met one of my old firends from my year in the university. I just turned around, and he was suddenly there. He just got married last week. I never really liked him... It was so strange that he just popped up in my life today. He doesn't live in the same city as me anymore. And he only calls, if he needs something from me. So part of me wanted this conversation to be over quickly. He of course acted like we're best buddies. BFF or something...
He and his wife were there for a movie too. Knocked up. I watched Knocked up on my computer the other day. I fell asleep during it. Then I just deleted it without even watching the whole thing. My evil part was happy, that they chose such a boring movie. :)

Justice

I'm reading Justice. I bought it at the comic con last weekend. I only bought the first HC, but I already ordered the other two, because I like it so much.

I'm not really a huge fan of DC comics, but it's refreshing to read some Batman and Superman stories from time to time. It's been a long time since I read a comic book as good as this one. Somehow I always like the bad guys better, and this book is all about them. They are trying to change the world for the better. At least they think it's for the better.
That's what's great about villains. They always think they're right.
I think I'd make a great villain. How many times have I thought that I'm right, and somebody else is wrong? How many times have I fought for my right? How many friends have I lost this way? Because of jealousy... And even if I really was right, what did I gain proving it? More enemies? I'm thinking about my highschool years. All those fights with all those people. Was it worth anything? How will I look at todays fights after 10 or 20 years from now?

I also went to the barber yesterday. My mom will be happy to see me with shorter hair. She told me the other day, that she liked me better with short hair... and with more smiles.

I wish I could make her happy...

That's me.

Who am I? Just a guy, afraid of fading away without a trace.
I've always had such big plans, I always wanted to create something huge, so my name will live on after I'm gone.
Well, I'm still young, let's hope I can attain my dreams. If not, at least this photoblog will prove I existed.

This picture was taken on the way home on a train. I met my friends at a comic book convention last weekend. It was a great day, but at the end I was a bit exhausted.