The New Year

Yep.
2 minutes 'till 2008 and I'm sitting at my computer.
No, I'm not pathetic, I just don't like to party.
My parents are off to their annual New year's party. My sister is at a house-party somewhere, and I'm home alone.
I watched Monsters Inc.
:)
I hope all my dreams will come true next year. What are those? Well... let's see.
...
I'm pretty satisfied with my life now
:D
Though I'd really like to get this whole PhD thing over me... And a better job 'd be fine too.
But I got a great family, I don't need anything more.

Happy NEW Year!

The new year is almost here.
I have a great idea! I want to make a one-photo-a-day-for-a-whole-year series. I hope I can succeed and take a photo of myself every day next year. And it'd be fine to finally get my PhD degree next year too, but I'm more psyched about the photo-project now.
I was busy doing nothing in the last few days. I beat Guitar Hero III on easy!
I want to upload some Christmas photos too.

Finally a real He_man Christmas. I've been waiting for this since I was 10.
Besides it's a must to own a vintage He-Man figure for the Prince of Eternia!
Thank you Ebay. And thank you Mom!


The dearest mom on Earth!

The drearest grandma on Earth. I feel now that Guitar Hero is going to change my life forever...
And how many guys have a grandma that cool, who buys Guitar Hero for them for Christmas?
Well, I have to admit, Grandma just hands out the money for us before Xmas, to buy anything we want.


My happy family. God I love them so much!
And my sister's boyfriend was really handy, we never had a family portrait on Xmas before.

Best Cristmas

I tried really hard not to be a grinch yesterday...
And I succeeded! I was extra nice to my sister's boyfriend and it wasn't even so hard. I'm such a fool. We had a great time together yesterday with the family. I'm really grateful for having a family like this. I prayed last night and gave thanks for them.
Gotta go now, so many things are happening. Guests are coming today, and I have to beat Tom Morello on easy level in Guitar Hero 3. Man, my fingers hurt.... I played until 1 am yesterday :D

Christmas eve

I'm terrified.
I've just learned that my sister's boyfriend is going to spend Christmas eve with us.
Why?
Why must I be with a complete stranger on the one and only night of the year, when our family is close together? I'm devastated. Why must he be here? If she loves him so much, why don't they celebrate Xmas together? Why must she drag him into my life too? Why can't I be alone with my mom and dad and sister, like we used to?
I hate that grinning idiot so much. I hate him for ruining everything.
Now, I'll try not to hate him. I don't want to hate anybody tonight. But it's so hard. The situation will be so awkward. Him sitting under the Christmas tree with us together. Like his part of the family. I'll never get used to this.
I wish so much that they'd finally move out to that new house my parents built for them. Even losing my sister like that would be easier for me than accepting him here.
I'll try to ignore him like I always do, not talk to him, don't even look at him...
Why doesn't my sister understand how I feel?

We're off to grandma in a few minutes. I'm writing this while pulling my pants...
After that it's church time. And after...

Merry Christmas for everybody!

Nothing special today...
Wrapped my sister's Xmas present.
Didn't go too well. I just suck at present-wrapping.

Busy, busy days...

This moring on the way to the university I actually saw the Coca Cola truck. Two of them!
After that I did nothing the whole day long, and after work we went out to have some hot wine. I went back to check on the trucks, and you could do all kinds of family fun there. For exaple play the PS2 with some Guitar hero... That looked sweet, but I didn't want to stand in line with all the 9 year olds, so I skipped it.
But I took some photos...


Me and my flatmate received a package today from one of our friends from the US. We met her this summer. She's a great girl, and I'm really happy for my gift t shirt.
Thank you Kati!


I think I'm ready for Christmas now. I've got the spirit, I got all the presents, I'll go home saturday, and I really hope we can have a great christmas together with my family.

Oh, and about family fun...

http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=1623776042

Yesterday we had the annual "company-christmas party" with my co-workers from the university. We went to a place, we visited 2 years ago. We played a little bowling, and then had a huge feast. It wasn't as bad as 2 years before...
This restaurant is located outside the city in a little village. We went out with cars. I hitched a ride in one of my co-workers car. The way back, around 10 pm, it was quite foggy, and cold. It was fascinationg to drive through the foggy plains in winter-moon shine. That was the part of the evening I enjoyed the best.
I thought about how strange these places are for me. Since I don't have a car I rarely leave the city. Only when I go home to my parents, and in that case I take the train. I thought about how it'd not be any different for me in another country. I'd feel the same strangeness...
Don't even get me stared on cars... I overheard my mom and dad talking about buying a new car last time I was home. My dad suggested to give the old car to the "kids". My mom asked him "And what do you give for your other kid?" - My dad obviously ment my sister and her bf before.
After that my dad answered raising his voice something like "Anything he wants", and then mumbled something about me alvays watching cartoons...
:/
no comment on that...

Today Marcie invited us over to her flat for chocolate fondu and baked apples. She's such a great friend...
She shares her flat with another girl, who went to medical school the same year as we did. We met in the Freshman camp, and I had a crush on her back then...
I really hoped I can see her tonight, but she was sleeping in her room the whole time long.
Well, we had a fun evening there anyway... I bought some Xmas music with me, we ate chocolate fondu with grape, baked apple in pancake and drank boiled hot wine.

Before that I received my first christmas gift from my flatmate. He leaves for home tomorrow. I'll go home saturday.
He's always joking around about me liking those penguin movies, like The march of the emperors, Happy feet, and Surfs up... He hated those movies.
So he bought me a Cody figure from Surfs up! I was really surprised.
He's a great guy, and I have to appreciate having a friend like him a little more in the future...
/I bought him a photo frame for christmas, so he can finally pace a decent photo with his gf on the shelf./

I love this city

I just love this city at Christmas time.
The best city in the country. Yesterday it finally snowed. Big time! I don't even remember when was the last time we had a white Chrsitmas here... Maybe this year we will! I went for a walk, and took some photos while I was waiting for my sister and her firends. After that we went for a pizza, and ended up in the mall.
I'll let my photos do the talking now...

That creepy old house. It's actually in the middle of downtown.
My fantasy always runs wild whenever I see it.
It'd be so cool to live up there in the tower... :)


I used to run here a lot, when I still lived in the dormitory.
I really like this place. Sometimes I miss those days...
Now I do all my running in the gym.


These stencil arts are popping up in the city everywhere...
I kinda like them. Pooh is especially cute there...


The Dom. Always a great sight. There's a big square here,
filled with people now. We have a small theatre made of straw.
A guy played some kind of a flute inside yesterday.
There's an open fire, and you can buy special christmas food, and hot wine too.
Every year the same, and I love it!


Well, I haven't posted any pics of my self for a long time.
So here's an emo one. I never wear my hair like this.
It was just an experiment in front of the mirror.
It's the 3rd year that I've been wearing my hair long...

I'm really tired. It's 10 past midnight. Dunno why am I still awake...
It snowed today. There was a quick snow storm, but it stopped just as sudden as it started. And all the snow melted. I don't think we'll have a white Christmas this year.
Funny... I don't feel anything about christmas...
I'm not in "the christmas mood"...
I haven't bought any presents yet, and it's starting to frustrate me.
I found someone, I really like, and I can never meet, and it's starting to frustrate me. Why do I have to have teenage crushes in my twenties? The best thing in not beeing a teen anymore is getting rid of the crushes... I swear I have more crushes now, in my twenties, than I had in my teenage years...
oh boy...
:(

Well this is it.
My sister's engagement party is today. I'm not really psyched about that...

I spend this weekend home, and I drew some stuff... I'm getting back into drawing, and I really enjoy it. I found out that I'm nearly half as good as I imagined... but that's okay.
Someday I'll draw my own comic book! I just need to figure out a good story. That's the hardest part. I have story ideas in my head constantly but none of them are any good...

Last week I went ice skating. With a girl. But it wasn't a date or anything. I hope she doesn't think it was a date. I'm really afraid of dating. I can't imagine what's so good about it... Maybe it's because I've never went to a date with a girl I actually like.... Oh wait, I did, but I was nervous as hell, so it didn't really help.
I found out that I'm better at ice skating as I thought. I really want to study how to skate properly. All I know about skating I learned from myself. It'd be cool to play hockey! That's like the coolest sport in the world. After pro wrestling of course ;)

Censorship beats my X-mas spirit... :(

What kind of a sick country am I living in?
I live in an ex-communist country. I was 9 years old when the country's russian occupation ended. I was thinking I'm living in a free country ever since.
Today my internet provider censored my favorite bittorrent site. Nobody can access that site if they have the same provider as me. That's just BULLSHIT!
That makes me so mad. What's next? Porn sites? If I pay the internet fee I have the right to see whatever I want on the net!

I took some photos of the christmas decoration in the city. But I'm so P.O.-d right now, that I'm not really in the mood to post them. But I'll do it anyway...

The promenade:


The Christmas tree of the city:

The exam is over

Well, the exam...
It wasn't so hard... I kinda regret that I didn't took level 3. I'll try it next year for sure!
The exam was a bit long, and I was pretty tired at the end. I went to a comic festival after that, and bought some sweek comix, and met my online firends there. It was fun, but nothing special. Oh, and I received a comic tpb for free, because I'm writing articles for this online comic portal. How cool is that? :)
I'm writing about action figures.

And talking about action figures... I've been hunting for an 80's He-Man figure for months. Yesterday I bid on a figure, which was on 20 bucks. I bid 22, and it was still 4 hours left of the bidding, when I went to sleep. I never thought I'd win.
And I did. o_O
Wow :D

The last day before the exam

Well this is it.
Tomorrow is the big day. The JLPT.
I think I'm prepared. I'm a little confused, and it really didn't help, that my teacher had to fly home to Japan this week in a hurry. I wanted to ask her so many questions before the exam. Well, I'm my own now, and I will do my best!

Watashi wa ganbarimasu!

I'm home at my parents house now. I haven't been home for 4 weeks. Nothing changed I guess.
I spent my day studying (and I watched Smackdown -Edge's return stirred things up a bit - FINALLY!) I've been alone the whole day long. Mom and my sis were out buying stuff and shopping, my dad was out to bring home my sis' new couch she bought for her new house. I'm always alone. Sometimes I feel that everybody around me has a life, and I don't fit into any of them.
Last week I went to the mall to check out this new Guitar hero game, I want for Xmas (my mom bought that for me since then - boy Xmas will be FUN!). In the mall I was wondering why am I so different than anybody around me. Why don't I care for things they do? It's like I'm not even part of their world. Or they aren't part of mine.

Geeky stuff

Gosh, I'm such a geek...
...
I made this long version of the He-Man theme song, so I can play it over and over with Dr. Megatron (that's the name of my iPod).
And the saddest thing is I did. The whole day, I've been listening to this song...

http://www.box.net/shared/fvzqjv2xqh

X-mas is coming...

I took the longer way home, to see the X-mas lights and the tree on the promenader.
It was beautiful. There's a huge round seal-like stone at the middle of the promenader. One young family was walking in front of me. Mom, dad, a little girl, and a baby riding, sitting in daddy's neck. The little girl suddenly realized they're at the big, round pavement stone in the middle of the street. She signald their secret code, and the whole family rushed and stepped on the pavement stone together. The little girl was so happy, she was jumping for joy.
They looked so cute together.
My iAudio was set on shuffle and was playing this song:
http://www.box.net/shared/s2zgjz8oc4
Fisherman's horizon - from Final Fantasy VIII.

I was so happy.

Dreams again

I still couldn't figure out how can I check the statistics of my blog. I'd really like to see how many people are reading this... If somebody knows how to check my blog statistics please let me know!
But then again, I don't think anybody reads this...

I've had the weird dreams again. I've had many dreams tonight.
First I were at home looking out of my childhood room's window (now it's my sister's room). It was night, and I saw city lights, wich is weird since we live outside the town. I could see all the way to Berlin, which is even more weirder. But now comes the good part!
Suddenly flying ships appeared! Ships made of wood, with sails and everything came flying through the air! Just like Thousand Sunny in the One Piece opening. I felt a great joy! I was hugging my mom, and yelling "can you see them? I told you they exist! I told you they're real!"
I felt so happy there with my mom watching those colorful ships fly in the night...

Then I had some other stupid dreams about parachuting, and getting a bj from a girl in a summer camp... Now, that one is exeptional, because it wasn't a pleasant dream, as some'd imagine. I don't really have erotic dreams, and I've never had an erotic dream I ejoyed. This one was the same. I remember this girl wanted to give me a bj, and then my dream skipped a scene, and it was over. All I remember is how I depised that whore...

Well, let's see what mr Sandman has for me tonight!
G'night my non-existent readers!

Second-hand Lions

I spent most of the day alone.
It was great. I studied, and watched a movie I downloaded earlier this week. Oh, and I made my famous scrambled-eggs for lunch. The movie I saw was Second-hand lions. It's an old one, as my flatmate pointed out later, when he returned home with his gf. I've never heard about this movie before, but I really enjoyed it. It's about a boy, who gets left at his uncles for the summer. The boy was raised by his mother alone, and he slowly starts to like his uncles he never met before. He finds father figures, and his own personal heroes in them.
This movie made me realize how badly I need a father figure...
My grandfathers died when I was still little, and I barely speak with my father. He never calls me, and I don't call him either. I was mad at him so many times, when I was still a child, that I've forgotten how not-to hate him. He lives with us, he didn't left or anything, it's just that he's never home, he's never there, and even if he's there, he don't seem to care. I mean we can sit in a car together in silence for hours...
I love him though, I just don't want to be like him. He never was my role model... and I think I need one.

Don't belong...

Sometimes I feel even more alone...
I have these online friends. I met them online, and later offline too. It's a small bunch of people, who like to be together. We keep in touch via a private internet forum.
Lately I've started to feel that I don't really belong to them. I'm more eduacted than most of them. Yeah, it sounds S.M.U.G., but that's the way I feel. I never feel like this when I'm with my friends from the university. I don't have to constantly convince them about the grave errors in their thinking.
I just want to be left alone now.

And I have to study more. My language exam is next Sunday.

Sometimes I think something's wrong with me. Like I lack some very basic skills every human beign has. For example social skills, or...

... that I'm incapable of love.

Yeah, it sounds silly, especially with this comic posted, but what if it's true? I barely have any relationships with other people except my family. My family, I haven't seen in 4 weeks now... I think about them a lot though. But that's all. I never go to party with my flatmate, I usually just sit around my computer, or read somethig... And the thing that scares me the most, is that I'm happy. Or I'm just keep telling it to myslef?

I just love One Piece. This show always makes me laugh. I've been watching it for like 2 years now... And all the characters are like my friends now.
I uploaded the new opening of the show, because I like it so much.
It's a bit long...



I also like the new Naruto opening. The music is not so great, but the last picture of Naruto and Sasuke with a blades at each others throat... now that's epic.

I have no idea what to buy for my parents for Xmas. But I kow I'd be really happy for the Guitar hero game :D

The big D

I'm a huge Disney-nerd. Probably the biggest I know... That's why it's such a shame, that I haven't done any Disney Music Video (DMV) yet.
So here it comes boys and girls!



I really had fun making this. I used all my favorite scenes from my favorite movies. My absolute favorite one is Pocahontas. I just can't forgive my mom for accidentaly braking my favorite Pocahontas-mug back at home.

I started the process for the phD degree today. From today on I have 2 years to make my exams, and do all the publications needed. Hope it'll be alright.

Weird dreams

I've been having this weird dreams lately. Yesterday, I dreamt that I was powerful like Peter Petrelli from Heroes. Some guys wanted to capture me and my friends. We were at a corridor with a glass wall at the end. I just put my hand on the glass, and the bad guys couldn't shoot us. The glass became bullet-proof.
Today I dreamt that a snake was all around me. A snake with no head. He had a tail instead of a head. It was creepy.

There are times, when I feel, I'm the worst PhD student in the world.
This is one of those times now...
Do I really suck at research?
Or am I just too lazy?
Would I be better if I had a research to work on, that actually interests me?
The life of a scientist is filled wit oh so many questions...

I'm watching moday night RAW.
Snitzky's match is perfect for wrinting my new blog entry. Somedays even I am scared of how important those wrestling shows are for me. Don't know why. I just have to watch it every week. I've been watching RAW for 4 years now, and never missed one show.
And it's not even on tv in my country. I have to download it.
Guess I'm a die-hard fan.
My biggest dream is to work with WWE on the road. I could be an arrogant heel with a phD :D
Assuming that I ever get my phD...

Today is the birthday of my flatmate. I made a music video for him, and posted it to him at midnight.



He want's to have a party on our flat this friday. I'm not really such a party-animal as he is. But I guess I have no choice now. It's his birthday after all.

Ah, it's Jeff & Rey vs Kennedy & Finlay! I have to watch this!

Road trip with my parents

Yesterday we went on a road trip with my sister and parents. Just like in the old days. That's another thing we'll loose when my sister gets married... :(
We went to lake Balaton. My grandfather is buried there, and we visit his grave every year.My grandma lives there too, but my dad and she had a falling out not long ago, so your visit at her was really uncomfortable, even for me. Grandma is strange...


Gawd, how I hate this old computer I'm working with at home. I actually have to wait for like 5 seconds form my letters to appear on the screen. This sucks so badly...

I got an e-mail from my best buddy from high school. He was doing his phd in Switzerland. He's finished now! Big congrats to him, and he 's got a job in Washington DC! Wow! I envy him so much! It'd be awesome to spend a year in the US as a post-doc! I wished him all the best! He's such a great guy, he succeeds in everything! We haven't really spend any time together since high school, but I'm glad he's my friend.

This comp suxxx so bad, I have to finish now. I really don't want to break anything here, but I'm getting angry fast...

The day of the dead

In my country, we call it the day of the dead. It's a sad holiday here. We don't wear masks, or costumes. We go to the cemetery and remember those who died.

I'm lucky. I've only lost my grandfathers, when I was way too young to remember it. That's why I admit, I don't miss them too much, since I've barely even knew them. But I saw a guy today in the cemetery. I know him from high school. He's like 3 years older than me, and I've never even spoke to him, but I knew his mom. She was a friend of my mom. And she committed suicide when I was still in high school.
That kid just stood there, at the grave of his mom today. Silently and alone. Alone in a cemetery filled with people. he looked so strong. Yet it was hard for me to look at him. I acted like, I didn't know who he was. But I'm sure, my mom noticed him too.
I wanted to talk with her tonight, maybe tell her how grateful I am, that she's still with me. But I couldn't make myself go down the stairs and spend an evening together. Even when I'm home, I just sit upstairs in my room. I've been home the whole week, and I've barely even talked to her. Let alone my dad.

Earlier today I met with some kids from the orphanage. They were out with a teacher at the fishing pond. I went there with my dog, to finally enjoy some sunshine. The kids were fascinated by the dog. They were so happy just to touch her. Those kids own nothing in the world. And they don't even have parents...

Another gray day...

On these days, I wonder if the sun still exists?
I haven't seen it for 3 days now, I hate those gray clouds...

Since I don't have to work, I sat around in the house the whole day. I watches Cyber Sunday. You can't watch Pay Per Views in my country. I download my wrestling. Wrestling plays a huge part in my life.

I was cheering for Taker...


I couldn't believe he lost.... :(

I had a ruff weekend.

First the wedding. Peppermint Patty gained weight since I haven't seen her. But she looked majestic as a bride. The wedding party took place in a small hotel outside the city. It was really cute, and looked like a winter holiday home together with a fireplace and everything. The food was delicious too. Me and my year mates from the U were the only company consisting of only young people. There were only around 70 people there. So everybody kinda counted on us to be the "show-stoppers"... I felt uncomfortable in the constant spotlight. I just can't have a good time if somebody orders me to do it. So I kinda sat around our table the whole night...

I have this friend from the university. Let's call her Marcie. She's always been like Marcie from Peanuts. Always studying, never partying, good notes, few friends... She's a really nice girl, and I like her very much... as a friend. I'm afraid she wants more. But she's too shy to tell me, and that's good. I kinda feel for her. But I can't imagine myself being in a relationship. I'm too self-centered to care about anybody else than me. I never had a longer relationship, and I think I never will.

So Marcie invited me to watch a musical this Sunday. She had 2 tickets for Mamma Mia. She bought the tickets for herself and for her sister, but her sister couldn't make it, and she said that she won't go and watch it alone. Now, those tickets were really expensive, they cost like 160 bucks.
I agreed to go , but inside I was dieing.... I didn't want to pay so much money for something I'm not even interested in. (Obviously, I didn't want her to pay for those tickets alone.) We shared the ticket price, because I said, that's the only way, I'll go with her.
And at the end it turned out, that I REALLY enjoyed the show! The whole thing was fantastic! I'm glad I watched it. Guess what, I'm listening to ABBA right now, as I type this ^_^'

I have the week off from work, and I'm home with my parents. I visited a doctor today with my knee. He gave me a shot in each of my knees. This was a private hospital, so I payed a lot of money, and he didn't even make an X-ray, let alone listening properly to my explanation about the problem. Oh, and the shots hurt like hell too.
I'm working in the field of medicine too, though I'm not a doctor. I never want to be like this doc. Never.
I hope my knees will get better.

Patty and Chuck

Took this one today on the road to the university. I musta looked like a total goof fumbling with my camera on the trolley. We were standing at a red light. I took this photo in the last second before the trolley started. I'm glad I did though... The two pigeons looked so cute there.

I kinda started to grow a beard. Dunno why. I forgot my electronic shaver in my flat when I went home for the holiday weekend, and it's painful to shave with a razor when it's longer. So I just avoided shaving until my bristles became a short beard by now... Maybe I'll keep it. It makes me look fierce. Just what I need for the weekend.


This weekend I'll have to be at the wedding of one of my friend's. She was in the same year as me in the university. She had a bit of a crush on me, but I didn't really like her. I mean she was okay, but she never was one of my fav peeps. I told her that several times too. We kinda had a Peppermint Patty - Charlie Brown relationship. Me being Chuck of course.
So I have to attend this wedding. I hate weddings generally, I hope I'll never have one of my own.
Funny, because I wanted to get married in the kindergarten with a girl named Eva. She lived and still lives in the neighbourhood. I guess my mom dind't really like her. We played a lot together both home and at the kindergarten.
Then I started school a year earlier than she did. I remember not wanting to go to school, because she wasn't coming. My mom was furious. Then she won me over by buying me a schoolbag with a turtle on it. I liked it so much, that I didn't want to waist it. So I went to school. And never talked to Eva again.
Talking to somebody a year below you was the worst thing you could do in elementary school. Well, it is if you cared about your coolness factor I mean...
Seriously, I don't know, why I didn't talk to Eva anymore. Why I didn't go over to her house to play anymore...
I met her some years ago on a train. She looked pretty. She was studying economics. I think she's an accountant at some agency now... I have her on my local myspace-like friend list. Maybe I should write to her?

Gray

You know the weather, when the sky is all gray, and it is slowly and quietly raining the whole day long?
Well I hate it.

One memory

I always loved watching the construction machines as a kid. Funny, I've never been a car-fan as a little kid, but I really liked watching excavators and grabs in work. My grandma lives in front of the railroad station, and we spent long hours watching the watching goods trains getting filled with stuff using a grab machine.
I remembered this sweet memory today on the way home. I took the train home, since we have holidays on Monday and Tuesday, so I went home to my parents from my flat. One station is under construction. I had plenty of time to take a photo.

I took it from the train. Somehow I felt that I could watch this machine work for hours...

My sister's boyfriend proposed to her. It scares the sh*t out of me. Not because I'm 3 years older than her, and I'm the one who should marry first. I know tings doesn't work that way...
It's because I'm loosing her. Nothing will be the same again. And I don't know how to deal with that... I'm not ready. My world is slowly falling apart around me.

Stardust

I really wanted to do something useful today, so I started with my Japan homework. I have to study, because I have this language proficiency test in Japan at december 2nd. I go for "yonkyuu" :D
So I was busy with my homework, when I got distracted by the fact, that the new episode of Naruto Shippuuden was up and available on the net. I downloaded it real quick, and watched it on my iAudio A2.

I just love my A2!

About Naruto? Gaara lives again, oh, and there's a new opening too. The animation is kinda in the same style as the last one. I don't really like the music.

I went to the mall tonight with my friend/flatmate, and his gf to watch Stardust. There was a Dance dance revolution contest going on. I -of course- enetered. And won a DVD. Well... every entry won a dvd, but that was sweet anyways... You could choose from different anime dvds. I chose Nausica and the valley of the wind. I like Myazaki. They didn't have Totoro (my fav), and all the other dvds were Inu Yasha. Inu Yasha is just too girlie for me...

Yes, the movie... I liked it. It was like listening your grandma telling you a Grimm fairy tale for the first time. Sweet and innocent, with a fairy tale happy ending.


Before the movie, after the DDR contest I met one of my old firends from my year in the university. I just turned around, and he was suddenly there. He just got married last week. I never really liked him... It was so strange that he just popped up in my life today. He doesn't live in the same city as me anymore. And he only calls, if he needs something from me. So part of me wanted this conversation to be over quickly. He of course acted like we're best buddies. BFF or something...
He and his wife were there for a movie too. Knocked up. I watched Knocked up on my computer the other day. I fell asleep during it. Then I just deleted it without even watching the whole thing. My evil part was happy, that they chose such a boring movie. :)

Justice

I'm reading Justice. I bought it at the comic con last weekend. I only bought the first HC, but I already ordered the other two, because I like it so much.

I'm not really a huge fan of DC comics, but it's refreshing to read some Batman and Superman stories from time to time. It's been a long time since I read a comic book as good as this one. Somehow I always like the bad guys better, and this book is all about them. They are trying to change the world for the better. At least they think it's for the better.
That's what's great about villains. They always think they're right.
I think I'd make a great villain. How many times have I thought that I'm right, and somebody else is wrong? How many times have I fought for my right? How many friends have I lost this way? Because of jealousy... And even if I really was right, what did I gain proving it? More enemies? I'm thinking about my highschool years. All those fights with all those people. Was it worth anything? How will I look at todays fights after 10 or 20 years from now?

I also went to the barber yesterday. My mom will be happy to see me with shorter hair. She told me the other day, that she liked me better with short hair... and with more smiles.

I wish I could make her happy...

That's me.

Who am I? Just a guy, afraid of fading away without a trace.
I've always had such big plans, I always wanted to create something huge, so my name will live on after I'm gone.
Well, I'm still young, let's hope I can attain my dreams. If not, at least this photoblog will prove I existed.

This picture was taken on the way home on a train. I met my friends at a comic book convention last weekend. It was a great day, but at the end I was a bit exhausted.